A bit of a tidy

When you don’t know what to do, comb your hair and clean your shoes.”

Making Money by Sit Terry Pratchett

I have been floundering with job and home stuff again and not being as productive creatively as I would like to be. My anxiety has ratcheted up a notch and depression is ensuring that there’s very little left to do essential stuff as well as creative stuff.

So today instead of getting creative I’ve done some tidying of the website. I needed a new logo as well so that’s done. The original logo was done by f1restart3rr before I knew what I wanted and what I wanted things to look like and while it’s not bad I think the new one encapsulates things a little better.

Anyway, please enjoy the clear out and rebrand. I’m still trying to figure out how to sort things properly with the short stories too but that is beyond me today.

Where am I now?

Well it’s been a while folks and I’m still here.

If you listen to my podcast you will know that over the new year things went south for me in a way I wasn’t expecting. This suck as I wanted to be doing more creative work but that made things even worse.

Depression is a multi-tentacled beast from beyond the darkness of space that lives in your mind and feeds on your fears and anxieties. Its also really exhausting. Pair that with so much of the ‘other’ stuff one needs to be doing to just keep on going, naturally something must give. For me it was my creativity. It’s not a happy trade-off but it’s one that I needed to do to keep sane.

I’m also thankful and know I’m lucky. I have access to medication, with thanks to the NHS, without making me bankrupt. I have support in work and a support network who help when I need it. I’ve also got access to the outside green spaces of the countryside. Lately the weather hasn’t been there for it but it’s something I can access. I have never believed the whole “if you go outside, you’ll be less depressed” that’s nonsense. It does mean however you get a bit of exercise and some fresh air. It’s not going to cure anything but it’s not going to kill you either. Well hopefully not anyway.

At the moment I’m working on a Novel. I still haven’t got a title, but the outline is done, and the first chapter is written. I’ve ‘borrowed’ my other half’s old manual typewriter. It’s frustrating as heck to use it but I’ve found it’s also a fantastic way for me to write. I need to think about every word I put down, I need to take my time in order to stop it getting all jammed up. Due to the fact it’s an old machine I also need to feel through the ribbon manually. The main reason I like it is because it takes me away from distractions.

Aside from the Novel and the Podcast, I’m also helping edit a friend’s blog called Soft Skills. Funnily enough it’s a job I enjoy. Mostly due to the fact its easier to critique something you didn’t write yourself. I’m enjoying the process as well and learning. Every day learning.

So that’s all for now. I am looking around for ideas of my next short stories. I will take anything and everything as a suggestion. Within reason!

Adieu for now my friends and I will be back. It’s a promise.

 

Heat!

It’s hot, oh so very very hot.

I am not designed to deal with anything over 21c and it’s got ten degrees higher than that. It’s been like walking through soup. Actually it’s like walking, sleeping and swimming through soup.

We’ve moved successfully to the new place. We’re also integrating two kittens into the household. The older cat’s are unimpressed with us though.

So what’s been going on?

I had been intending to get more work done but downtime at the moment means that I’m asleep rather than being able to work on my writing.

A few months ago I pestered a good friend and now we’ve got a podcast. You can find it here.

I’m working on my novel, and I’ve got some ideas bouncing around for short stories.

I’ve also set up a Ko-fi page which needs work but if you want to donate to me feel free.

Since things are now settling and the weather is cooling down a little bit I’m aiming to get back into a routine of writing and posting.

If you’ve got anything interesting that you want to share, let me know.

 

What am I doing?

I haven’t been writing. There are a lot of reasons for it but mostly life has been getting in the way. House hunting is exhausting and demoralising. Add on the fun that is trying to keep down a full time job and dealing with chronic pain. Honestly I am exhausted so much now and my mental health isn’t bad but it’s not great.

The funny thing is that I’m missing writing now. I want to get conjuring tales out of the thin air, weaving characters into existence. Not sounding like a pretentious prat when I do these things.

Moral support would be great but since only five people actually read my blog and they’re mostly trying to sell something, that’s probably not going to happen.

Hopefully I’ll have a nice catalogue of stories soon and I’ll have them ready to rock by autumn. That’s the word though, hopefully. Well, here’s to hope.

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